Notes on Dis-ease and death

Experiences of illness, loss and grief might be described as everyday and mundane encounters with the unforeseen given their ubiquity. Yet, they are inevitably, and paradoxically, singular. A retrospective summarising of the text that follows cannot (re)capture the power of writing at a time of disrupted daily rhythms, of hitherto unknown intensities, of involuntary de-centring and becoming, of entanglement with matter that is real but no longer there. This liminal state – a Deleuzian ‘tangle of views’ and Deleuzoguattarian ‘lived emotion’ – made a habitual academic style seem both impossible and inappropriate. Academic references were inserted after writing events, conceived now as unpredictable flows of thought and feeling, of allusive experimentation, of (re)orientation, of writing that moved something.